Confessions of a Cat-holic (134)

I was quite sure that conversation that was supposed to be strictly private and confidential between Rex and I was tapped. I didn't think Rex recorded our conversation and leaked it to unknown sources. Rex was evil and rotten to the core, but not in such a way where he would set me up and videotape me to smear my image. I had never heard Rex ill talk another person. But that didn't mean he had universal love for everyone. He just was not a soft lipper, meaning he would not slant his enemies just to make him look bad. He actually would do bad things that directly harmed the person. Speak softly, love from The Godfather, remember?

How did I know our conversation was tapped? It was quite obvious. Ever since that day of our first fight, I started hearing interesting stories from my friends. Most notably, it was Serena. Serena was supposed to be the most attractive girl in our year. She started introducing me to her boyfriends, yes, boyfriend with an "s". She would say to me one day, that was Dominic, her sex partner. And then another day, it was Elton, her boyfriend. Then it would be a fifty year old man with a Porsche, she called him her "sugar daddy". And then she called her suitor, Lil Kam, her fuck buddy. And then the IT technician of SPCC was her "friends with benefits". Her boyfriends were all over the place. Some in academia, some in finance, some in the same school, some outside of her school and some with an age gap of over 20 years. I was like, gosh, did this girl have a brain? Why did no one say anything about her to stop her doing crazy things like that?

And whenever people asked her if she had a boyfriend, she would say, "yes, no, maybe", sometimes a half, did that count? She was the epitome of an SPCC girl, with a residence on MacDonnell Road from a divorced family, slightly spoiled, clueless about many things with a mind that could be quite messed up. She said she was just mirroring what I had been doing. If I played with a mafia's heart like that and was considered cool, why couldn't she do the same?

I didn't understand her logic. As I said, I didn't hate my new friends from SPCC. Rather, I was perplexed about their mentalities. Back then in 00s, things were still not as crazy. Why would a teenage high school girl go around and tell everyone that she slept with over 10 different guys who were not entitled her "boyfriends"? I just figured that something was wrong with the school. I'd better leave as soon as possible.

Apparently, I was deemed a girl who gave away my first night to a mafia boyfriend because I felt like it and I wouldn't call him my boyfriend. Rex was deemed to be one of my "friends with benefits", "fuck buddy" or "sex partner" even, who strictly slept with me for physical pleasures. No strings attached, whatsoever.

Then I thought to myself, wait a minute, I'd gotta do something about it.

I knew how to work with a mafia, as much as with my friends in the cadet school. I wholeheartedly trusted Rex and I believed that he was doing that for my own good. Never for a second, I had doubted his intentions or actions, because I knew how the mafia worked. Even though I did not know the details of his scheme, I knew he was setting me up with the two questions and the answers he wanted to hear for some good reasons. I guessed I should just play along and follow his plan.

I had never had sex with Rex. Actually, I had never even seen his naked body. That was a matter of fact. But everyone already assumed that I fucked him too hard and we were left with no room for further intimacy. It could be that we had played all the bed tricks in private already to a point I grew tired of him because there was nothing left for us to do. It was assumed by everyone that we had anal sex, blow jobs, 69 and everything else that could be learned from those porn.

I could not let anybody know the truth because it was our best cover and protection. With an innocent child-like angel face, I must have been a pure one who was just lucky to fuck with a kind heart like Rex. Rex had been too forgiving to me, almost heaven sent.