because of mingyu...

because of mingyu, i have become a hopeless romantic.

i admit that actually before I met mingyu, i never believed in love. period. no further explanation needed.

hk is a very materialistic place. everyone just cares about money. marriage is calculated. there is no love in this city.

to be honest, i think hk is a very skewed place. i don't like where i came from. if i could, i would rather live in another city, like beijing, seoul, or whatever place. just not hk.

i don't like hk culture. its very 速食. and people cannot think of anything else other than 嫁入豪門. with the prime example of 徐子淇 in my generation, everyone thinks that i want to marry rich.

actually, i don't like to explain myself for good reasons. i want to marry a guy like mingyu. but i also cannot show my affections. it is very painful. i can only look at him and secretly admire him as his gf's best friend. we had so many 소개팅 together, as a girl from hk, totally unrelated to korea, i am so glad they invited me to their events. i totally disregarded this racial ethnicity difference, and always showed up and attended every single event sammy asked me to go. that way, i can be near this perfect guy mingyu.

mingyu always asked me to come out like 3 am in the morning. sometimes, we had $2 pizza on broadway. the pizza was like two times my face size, for just $2. it was so good though, cos I ate it with mingyu.

we had a lot of "first experience" together. we went to new york clubs together underaged. we had beer together in the club. we had our first 소개팅 and we had our first soju. we had our first korean karaoke night together. we had our first apt korean drinking game. we had our first sake bomb. we had our first korean bottle cap drinking game. it was so much fun. even though i had to say, freshman year was so hectic cos i barely slept. but because i was with mingyu, everything was so worth it.

we had our first broadway shake at tom's restaurant on broadway, just outside our dorm. it was like 4am in the morning cos we went to college party downtown. on our way back, we had to drop by and eat something cos we danced all our dinner calories off. i loved the broadway shake. it was supposed to be columbia' must try experience, cos seinfeld was filmed at tom's. we had so many memorable experiences together. even though i never stayed up in hk, not even for exam or any public exam, i almost never missed any events with KSA and sammy cos i really wanted to be around mingyu.

to me, he is perfect. everything about him is perfect. he is loving, down to earth, serious, funny, romantic and hot. and he is a medical doctor. i just cannot find any other guy as perfect as him on this planet, not even in this entire universe. not even in pluto, mars, venus, jupiter, saturn, all combined. he is the only person whom i want to marry in this entire universe.

this love and admiration for him is totally secret. i never told anyone about my love for him. i just wanted to be around him day after day, from now until forever.

but because this admiration for mingyu gradually grew as time goes by, i also became a hopeless romantic subconsciously.

he always surprised me with some romantic stories. when we were were hanging out in a group, he always took us to romantic dates like ice skating at rockefeller center so he could hold my hands. it was so subtle, nobody like noticed that we were holding hands. of course, sammy was there. so it could not be that obvious. but mingyu is such a romantic.

i often think that a guy like him is like god. he is so flawless. he really should date sammy. i don't know why when i fell in love with a guy, i often tend to think of things very negatively. like i would think that i had no chance of dating this perfect guy, because i am a year older (sammy is also a year older than him). i am not korean. i am not from jersey. i am not pretty enough. i don't have korean features. i don't speak korean. i am from asia. i am a bit taller than him. i am not rich enough to 包養 him. and i am not attractive enough cos i looked like crap freshman year. like my hairstyle was messed up. and he has like perfect skin, he has perfect job and major, he has everything a girl can ask for and i have nothing. i don't know why when i fell in love with a guy, i became another person, like someone who is totally shy, introverted, hopeless and unrealistically pessimistic. is it just me?

he is so funny though, he likes watching movies. and like one night at butler library, me and sammy were studying in the bench area. tom came over and he looked for sammy right. he like brought a laptop over and he pulled us into a room, it was like a study room which was hard to find in prime study time. we occupied that small study room, and he like played zoolander and made us watch for the entire night. he said we should be watching movies instead of studying. he said we worked too hard. and you know what's funny, zoolander is so hilarious. we laughed at the same thing. and like sammy had this laptop with a hidden camera on the screen and we took so many 自拍照 with mingyu all in funny faces. and we ended up not studying for a second that night. and imagine this happened almost every time we went to the library freshman year.

i told kelly and sammy that hk is a very tropical place. i never saw snow until like 12 years old in beijing and i had only seen it once in my entire life. freshman year 2003 fall, it hadn't snowed yet. mingyu said he would bring sammy to empire state building on the first day of snow. he said a couple who spent the first snow together would stay together forever. why is he such a romantic guy? he is all i can ask for in a guy. to me, he is god damn perfect.

you know what else mingyu did for me, he like cooked the entire korean barbeque meal for me and sammy when we went to have korean food in k town. the entire meal i was just sitting there with sammy 夾餸 for me, and mingyu was doing the cooking the entire time. and it was mingyu!! no joke! how can i not fall for such a perfect guy?

so yeah, the guy i wanted to marry was mingyu....not gordon park, unfortunately......

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