Confessions of a Cat-holic (129)

As I said, I was a very big-headed and somewhat scatter-brained person. I only remembered how that ice cream tasted in my mouth but I did not recall what happened that night with Rex.

Only years after I broke up with Rex when I saw the music video filmed by Alex Fong and Stephy Tang, I started to have flashbacks of that night we had our desserts at Haagen Dazs.

I was not trying to seduce Rex. Not what I intended. I loved ice cream very much. Particularly chocolate flavored banana split. When I was a student, I did not have a lot of occasions eating ice cream. Partly because it was kind of expensive, partly because I was on a diet. My new friends from Central district were very mean. They liked to body shame me by calling me Shaquille O'neal. I was not that big and tall, it was just that my new friends were short like midgets because they never worked out. When I was in Wanchai, only blocks away from my new campus, I was often the small and tiny one.

I was more excited for the ice cream desserts than the date. I didn't know if Rex liked ice cream as much as I did but I definitely put ice cream top of my list for favorite food. We played this game where we were supposed to share it half by half. In order to make sure I finished my half, not any less, I told him that he could only scoop his bite after mine.

Rex was a gentleman in front of me. He never ate more than me, and he always let me have my bite first. I was trying to make him jealous by scooping a big portion of the ice cream and then pretending to feed him but I always pulled that spoon away from his tongue back into my mouth so he felt a bit disappointed. I liked to play this kind of kissing game. Sometimes, I would put a French fry between my lips and ask him to eat half of that. Sometimes, I would pass a grape from my mouth into his. I thought that kissing with a bit of taste in our mouths would be like adding spice onto a dish, making the moments more memorable.

I was not particularly creative. I grew up watching TVB dramas and I saw Irene Wan doing that with her "emperor" when she played Daji and Pan Jinlian. I always saw Irene Wan as my role model anyways. I liked how she was a bit evil and sexy using her charisma and sex appeal to obtain her aims and sometimes commit murders even. Of course, I would not attempt to kill anybody because that would get me in prison. But I liked how she manipulated men with her charm without getting into any troubles. Whatever poisoning crimes or stealing thefts committed by my opponents I met later in life were very kindergarten level tricks. I grew out of that since grade 2. I used my brain more than enemies, that was all.

Rex started to kiss me after I had my chocolate ice cream scoop into my mouth. His tongue was a bit warm and wet. And the chocolate flavors were a bit strong. Altogether, it felt like having a mug of frozen hot chocolate by Serendipity in New York City, if you knew what I meant. It felt funny, because his tongue was so aggressive and I loved that melting ice cream with chocolate flavors in my mouth.

All in all, I was glad that it was Rex whom I had dated. If I had to follow Rita's legacy of public kissing my boyfriend, that guy'd better be hot. Ideally, he should also be a cop, if not a gangster. And I was very grateful that Rex had my list all checked. I was glad that my first love was Rex. He surpassed all my expectations. Had I had dated another person less charming, I would not be very happy with a public kiss with melting chocolate ice cream.

Rex was everything I could ask for. He was manly yet gentleman-like; he was quiet yet athletic; he was intelligent yet not bookworm-ish; he was handsome, attractive yet not full of himself; he was caring yet not overly controlling; he was well off yet not particularly showy. The list could go on forever. It felt so right to be his first and only girlfriend. I felt thankful and relieved that he was my first love, not some weirdos or freaks who wanted to take away my virginity and videotape and rape me for fun. Welcome to Hong Kong, the pacific island and love paradise...