Confessions of a Cat-holic (226)

I intended to have my ass covered like that. But in the end, I still couldn't betray my heart sleeping with a guy who regularly visited the brothels in Tokyo. If I was a bit greedier, I could have requested to sleep with Edmond and pretended that the baby was his and then got married when I was 23. No, I did something else. I gave him a blowjob on Christmas when I came back to Hong Kong for winter break in a hotel in Tsim Sha Tsui. It was protected too (I made sure I could make my last intimacy as memorable as possible without risking my own health of course) and after that I never had any intimacy with him again. I never even saw him again after our break up in 2007 even though our offices were within walking distance from each other.

He flew over to have a trip with me in Caribbean with his family over my spring break. They flew to Boston and asked me to join them on the island. His brother and his brother's wife shared the room with us on two double beds. We got into fights again because they were treating me in a condescending manner. Yeah, I really hated the way his family treated me, just because they went to Harvard and Yale. We really didn't get along. I didn't like his siblings and parents.

My period resumed already. I was not pregnant, so I broke up with him......I figured I didn't need Edmond as a rebound anymore. I said goodbye to him on my way to the airport back to New York and told him that I never wanted to see him again as a couple because of the way his family treated me during the trip and to my surprise I didn't feel any upset at all. Shortly after the break up, two co-workers from Lehman flew to New York to take me out on a date around Valentine's Day. So I thought maybe being single was not too much of a bad thing. So slowly I moved on.

I called him to see how he was doing just after I graduated when I was about to start my job at Lehman. I was in Beijing at the time. He told me he was at an Ivy League dinner. I tried to act bitter and teased him for not inviting me, even though I didn't really want to have any affiliations with him anymore. We already broke up, and we rarely talked after that. He told me that he was hospitalized from kidney stones a month before. He said he was yelled at by his boss that day and so he passed out in the office. Apparently, he said that his medical conditions were due to stress from work and his habits of not drinking enough water and not urinating as frequently as he should be.

My mother listened to our conversation when I was talking to him on the phone. I acted like I felt very bad for his hospital emergency, even though I was secretly celebrating his misfortunes. I told myself it was just the beginning of everything. My mother gave me a book Mr. China (華爾街銀行家跌倒在中國地圖上）. That book mentioned my family business, the beverage business in China. I fetched Edmond a copy and told him to read through it, so he knew what to expect when working on Wall Street. But like always, he disregarded my comments, because he always treated me like an idiot. He insisted that I was a silly woman from rural China and I was just lucky to have reached this far without the help of any acquaintances. Even now, I suspected that he might have already thrown away the copy I gave him and forgot our conversation in my senior year when I warned him about overworking in the financial industry.

Things were quite good on his end, he got married with Jessica after dating for a few years. I heard he still liked to pay visits to the brothels in Macau, Thailand and Japan. The funny thing was that his wife was totally fine about that.

In my last semester at Columbia, Kelly told me that she saw Eddie with his friends when I was singing karaoke with her. That was after I broke up with Edmond. But I was too hurt by Eddie's mean comments when we broke up. I didn't want to have my heart broken by the same guy again. I still hadn't got over him and I really just wanted to have some lone time by myself and figured out what was next for me.

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