how did I end up with gordon?

So as I said, sophomore year, mingyu disappeared from my radar. I moved on with my life. Took classes at the engineering school. Worked on assignments. Earned money as the TA in the math department.

I had like internships lining up and I went to all those recruiting events and stuff to hopefully get a job.

I already knew I probably would major in IEOR, for a bunch of reasons I explained earlier.

I actually told Kelly so many times that I like 張晨 and as I said, she didn't approve of this.

She is very funny. Kelly is very consistent. She mentioned to me many times the guys she found attractive on campus. They are all the same type, her current husband type.

I said I don't find them attractive at all. And then I would go on to tell her the guys I like.

Back then before we had facebook, we had like a physical year book thing that had all our photos, so old school. And we would rate all of the Asian guys, hot or not.

But rarely Kelly and I had come to agreement in terms of hot guys.

Kelly went out with a Taiwanese guy from SEAS. He is a very nice guy and stuff. His name is Lawrence. Lawrence has a lot of hot guy friends from TAS. Cos TAS is like a feeder school for Ivy and TAS guys are so loaded.

I told Kelly I would rather date a guy from Beijing than a Taiwanese guy. She could not agree. Kelly really didn't like her peers in northern China I guess.

So Kelly suggested that I should consider dating a Korean guy.

It was through her recommendation that I slowly started to notice the existence of Gordon Park. I saw him on the runway in freshman year. That left me a big impression. I think he is hotter than mingyu. But overall, mingyu is still a better catch. Cos mingyu is a doctor, and mingyu is my friend.

Gordon Park is good friends with my Hong Kong friends. But I almost never hang out with Hong Kong people on campus. Because to me, I would much rather hang out with Mingyu, the perfect guy who filled all my requirements when I looked for a husband. I never hang out with Jason but because he is part of SOC, and so was Kelly, we kind of knew each other. Afterall, I am from HK. So of course Jason and I crossed path a few times freshman year. But I also knew that I can always hang out with HK people after graduation right, so of course I should take the opportunity to get to know mingyu because I might not see him again after I graduated. So yeah, that was why I only got to know Gordon on a deeper level in my second year, because mingyu came first, in the matter of time and position in my heart.

A few people expressed interests in me, despite me having a boyfriend. I wanted to break up with 田雞 long time ago but he is so annoying. The main reason for our breakup is I am really not attracted to him. To avoid bad karma, I waited until he graduated from Yale. He went back to HK to start his banking career. So we ended our relationship on good terms. We didn't have any fights or anything. We stayed friends for a while until I never talked to him again in 2007.

When I was planning to start a new relationship after 田雞, there was another Korean guy who expressed interests in me. He was 10 years older than me, a Korean grad student from Berkeley. He was studying phd at Columbia business school. He made me realize that actually studying IEOR can lead to a phd in the business school, and/or engineering and science school. That further confirmed my choice to study IEOR as my intended major.

He took me out on a date in a Korean wedding hall. We had Korean food. I ate a lot and he said I was the first girl to have eaten so much in front of him because other girls would eat like a bird on a first date. I was very surprised. I think Korean culture is so different from HK. Like they have so much societal pressure to look good, and look sophisticated. I totally didn't care. I really liked the food he ordered. He always ordered food I had never tried before, in Korea and in Fort Lee. And he seemed very accomodating despite my not so enticing table manners. I often think that Korean guys and girls must be very tired cos they fucking care so much about what other people think. Like girls have to eat like a bird in front of the guys, and guys have to go to the gym and stuff. Anyways, I like Korean culture though cos it is so old schooled.

He like rented a car (mini cooper) and drove me to Fort Lee. I have never been 追求 by a guy like that in my entire life. I was so impressed. Korean guys are so romantic. Better than 田雞 who like took me out to eat all you can eat buffet and yale dining hall to save money. HK guys are so stingy when it comes to dating. That's why I never wanted to date a HK guy ever again in my entire life. Cos they are not good looking, weak as hell and super stingy and calculating.

After we had that korean dinner at the wedding hall, he took me to a korean bakery in fort lee. It was so pretty next to the river. He took a picture of me with his cell phone. And sent it back to me. I can really see myself getting married with this Korean guy and maybe moving to fort lee with him. But he is 10 years older than me. I was only 20 at the time!

I really wanted to break up with 田雞 so badly. Jesus Christ, when can I ever not see him again?

The Korean grad student is not bad looking. Just a bit older than me. But he is a grad student with a decent job and career. But my heart is telling me, I should not fall for the stability thing again, otherwise I might experience the same hell like experience, waking up next to a guy who made me think that I would rather stay single for the rest of my life than marrying him. So I rejected him.

Sammy knew that I was dating this grad student. She was so curious and she asked me a lot of stuff. I didn't want to tell her. I felt good after being dropped off by his mini cooper outside of my dorm though. I still kept in touch with this Korean grad student after graduation. But eventually, I stopped seeing him. I don't know the reasons either. Maybe Korea is too far. Maybe I want to stay single. I don't know, maybe I thought it was too impossible. I was too lazy? I don't want to date anyone anymore. I think I am very old already and I am not a 少女 with 少女心 anymore. I find it harder and harder for me to fall in love again as I grow older. But with mingyu, my heart gets hopeful again, that somewhere half way across the globe, there sits a perfect guy who knows my heart.

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