mingyu or gordon?

Actually, I worked so hard in high school that I felt like a machine. HK is very fast paced. And hectic.

It was only through Columbia that I felt that I am finally human. Through living with my friends like Sammy and Kelly, that I felt I have a heart. That I have feelings. That I am a human with affections. I don't feel that in HK. I felt true friendships, I felt true love when I was with my friends at Columbia.

Mingyu was like my 白月光. 可遠觀而不可褻瀆....Still that feeling of being around him made me feel so hopeful that there is a guy out there can win my heart like this.

Anyways, freshman year, I was studying in the library at Butler.

I saw Mingyu and his friends. He asked me to come out and play some sort of games. Everytime I hang out with Mingyu, it was with a bunch of people. And it was always some sort of fun stuff, either Korean drinking games or like that time, some sort of running exercises.

I remember I was running outside Butler with Mingyu. I was trying to chase after something. Then I felt down cos I was running too fast. Then, I realized I was bleeding. I was so upset. I wanted to cry cos I didn't like getting hurt like that.

Mingyu was the first to turn back and run to ask if I was okay. I was so happy. Mingyu cared about me when I fell down. He hadn't gone out with Sammy then, he was still single. But I was not.

He didn't laugh at me or anything. He picked me up and 扶我行路. All the way to my dorm. And he like took care of my wound and asked if I needed to go to the school's clinic or something. It was just a 擦損傷口, I said no big deal. But he was so caring, like a doctor checking out my 傷口. I pretended that it hurt so much cos I wanted him to walk me back to my dorm.

If you ask me, in a completely free world, I would say with total hands down, Mingyu is more perfect and ideal than Gordon Park. Gordon seemed more masculine on the outside, with his six pack and stuff. But he is not as caring as Mingyu. Mingyu, on the other hand, seems less masculine, even though he also looks like a monkey. Mingyu is a caring person and he knows what a girl needs. I think Mingyu is my 100 分情人.

Not Jackson Wang. Not 田雞. Not some big shot billionaire from HK.

Mingyu is not some sort of kpop idol I saw on TV. But actually my physical friend. Not some gym ghost who never talked to me in person.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QMk2ttYTdXg