never ending fantasy

Sammy took me to get a fake ID during orientation week. But it was so fake that I never got to use it.

Sammy and I were really good friends. We ate together. We went to class together. She cooked for me when I had cramps. She took me to those Korean convenience stores to get microwavable rice. I told her my hands were so cold that my skin kinda cracked. She immediately bought me a pair of gloves from Gap. I have never been treated this nice by any friends in HK. I grew up in HK. HK is very fast paced. People are very calculating, and manipulative. HK guys are superficial and materialistic. It was through Tom and Sammy that I first experienced what true friendships and true love meant. So I really cherished this friend of mine. I could forget about all this and sneak into Tom's bed and ask him to fuck me real hard. But I don't think I should do that. Let's just forget about this.

I have been to Tom's room many times. He lived in John Jay. He lived in a single. Whereas Sammy lived in a suite with two doubles, across the hall way from me. So that's how we got to know each other really well. Cos we literally lived next to each other freshman year.

Tom is a bit metrosexual. He is the Mingyu type of metrosexual. Not the Leslie Cheung type of metrosexual. Meaning he is very polished. He has perfect skin. His skin is so fine and flawless, he makes me wonder, do I take care of myself too little? He is so Korean, like a neat freak. Like his room is so tidy right. And my room is so messy. I feel so ashamed of myself sometimes. I really do like him. But then I also consider practical things like, I am from HK. He is a Korean from Jersey. It would make much more sense for him to date a Korean from Maryland, like Sammy. Instead of a girl from HK. Also I don't have Korean features. I don't look Korean. And now that he is a medical doctor in Hawaii, the chances of him coming to Asia is close to nothing. I recently watched a documentary, suggested by my dad before his passing away. It was about a Korean doctor Han Jo Kim marrying a white Miss beauty pageant from Connecticut. Actually, interestingly, he graduated from Columbia too. And he looked just like my friends at Columbia.

It made me ponder, is this even possible, me getting married with a Korean doctor? I think about practical things like this a lot. A doctor would not give up all his hard work, his license, his professional career to come to Asia for love obviously. Especially medical doctors can have all they ever wanted or wished for in America. Why come to Asia? Asia is underdeveloped. If say I fall in love with like a layman in America, I still stand a chance. But Tom seems to have a lot at stake.

Anyways, Mingyu has a lot of skin products. He has more skin products than me. He takes care of his look. I notice something about Koreans. They really take care of their looks. No wonder they look the best among the Asians. They are usually the tallest, and the best looking, by far, among all Asians. He is a very devoted Catholic. I think we share a lot in common, in terms of religious beliefs. He went to an all boys school in Jersey. He is a very conservative guy. I like him a lot.

Sammy is Christian. Because Tom is Catholic, and she is Christian, she actually went to Catholic church in the morning and Christian church in the afternoon for the sake of making Tom happy. I truly admire the tenacity of Koreans. If I was asked to change my religion by a HK guy, I would first conduct a chemical castration on him. Sammy is a very submissive and apologetic girl. She always says thank you and apologize without the need to. When we eat out in those Korean bbq restaurants, she would like 夾餸 for the ones around her, including me too. I notice that modern Korean girls are not like that. Only Sammy is like that. Maybe becos she was raised in a Korean family as expats in Indonesia. Sammy has a lot of Korean friends enlisted in the army. She is loved by her peers back home in Maryland and our friends at Columbia because of her conservative personality and Korean face. She always took me to dance with her friends from Maryland in those K town clubs when they came visit her. I was freaked out man. They were like wrestlers, like 6 feet tall army military officials from West Point, no joke.

Apparently, they had free rides in subway. Cos West Poing is tuition free, and they pay for most of your expenses. I have fantasies about dating a doctor, not a veteran. I like 河錫辰, that kind of tech engineers. I like that kind of guys. Not West Point military official or cops. Don't mistake me. I like built guys but not like a guy who can hit me to death when he gets angry. I always imagine, if my husband gets into a fight with me, I have to make sure he is not from West Point.

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